Tabios……
I feel like shit. My heard is killing me, the sun is burning my eyes, and something in here smells like death. I think it could be me. I don’t even remember how the hell I got home last night. All I remember is me walking out on Angel. I can’t get the disappointment on her face when I told her I couldn’t do this anymore. I thought I was going to be able to handle the truth but I couldn’t it was too much for me. I can’t share her with someone else especially not with that dick head. She made her choice the moment she let me walk out that door without saying a word. All she had to do is say one word and I would have run back to her without no shame. I had to get away from her because at that moment all I wanted was to wrap her up in my arms and comfort her, tell her that everything was going to be alright. That I would never let no one hurt her. I had to walk away with whatever I had left of my dignity even if that meant ripping my heart out and leaving it with her.
There is a loud knock on the door causing my head to explode. I look over to the clock that reads 9. Who the hell can that be? “I am going” I yell as I jump off the bed. I look through the hole and see Josh standing there. I can’t help but to feel disappointed. I open the door and quickly turn around avoiding the sun. “What the hell is that smell?” Josh asks as soon as he steps in. “I think it’s me” I answer as I put on some coffee. “Maybe if you would shower everyday like a normal human you wouldn’t smell so fucking badly” he jokes but I am not in the mood to joke. “Cue the crickets” he mumbles
“Why are you here?” I ask as I walk in to the bathroom to wash my mouth. I think I ate whatever died last night. “Well you disappear on me last night, I was just checking to see if you were still fucking alive” he says. Like I said at the moment all I wanted was to get away from Angel. I just remember walking out of there like my ass was on fire. I remember someone calling my name but I kept going. I shrug my shoulders “I am alive you can leave now”. I am not in the mood to be around people that’s the reason I came home last night instead of going to the club. “I am not leaving” he says. Honestly I don’t give a fuck if he stays or not. I walk pass him “I don’t care”. I walk into the kitchen to get me some coffee maybe that will make this fucking headache go away. Josh follows me into the kitchen “What happen last night?” he ask. I run my hand through my head as I take a seat “I don’t know” I say. All I remember is losing my shit. “Did you ask her?” he takes the seat across from me. “Yea” I nod my head.
“And?” he pushes the subject. I guess I am going to have to talk about it. I move the coffee out the way and walk to the fridge to pull out two cold beers. Fuck the coffee that shit isn’t going to work for this conversation. “OH shit,” Josh says as I throw him one. “She admitted it” I open the beer and take a swing out of it. Just remembering makes my fucking chest hurt. I feel like someone is stabbing me in the heart with needles. “She admitted it just like that?” he asks surprise. He has the same face expression I had. I nod my head “I ask her if she knew Manic and she said yes” I answer. My chest starts to hurt even more when I think of last night. She was so fucking terrified of me and I don’t blame her. I lost my shit and acted like a damn fool. I would have never laid a fingeron her but I don’t think she knew that. For a moment there she was looking at me like if I was a monster. I saw the fear in her eyes. Josh was right I should have waited until I was sober to have that conversation with her but I won’t admit that to him. “Damn,” Josh takes a swing of his beer “and what did she said when you ask her about the whole Old Man shit?” he ask. I remember her saying something about a misunderstanding but the misunderstanding was her getting caught in her lies. “What did she say? Did she admit to that too?” he asks. I take a swing out of my beer “She didn’t have to admit to that I already knew the answer”.
Josh shakes his head “So you didn’t ask?” he says. What is there to ask? We both know she is that’s bastard Old Lady we heard it from his own damn mouth. “For what?” I ask him. If she would of admitted that to me I don’t know what would of happen. “You’re a fucking idiot” Josh says. I nod my head “Tell me something I don’t know”. He is right I am an idiot for falling for an Angel with no heart. “Asking her if she knew him isn’t the same as asking her if that’s her fucking Old Man asshole” Josh says. What the hell is he talking about?
“Why ask when we both heard it from his mouth” I point out. I don’t know what the fuck he is trying to prove. He shakes his head “Yeah they also said that if we give her back there wasn’t going to be a war and did you believe that too buttercup?” he ask. I shake my head “Hell no” I say. Fuck! What if they were just using her as an excuse to bring drama to us? Maybe Manic was lying to get to me, they wanted me to lose my shit and be the first one to make a move. “Fuck” I run my hand through my hair. “Dumbass” Josh says. He is right I am a dumbass. I didn’t even give her the chance to explain herself. I just fucking believed that fucker instead of asking her. “Fuck I need to go” I run to my room to get dress. I need to go talk to Angel and figure everything out for once and for all. I need to apologize for the way I acted last night. I know I said some hurtful shit to her. I made her cry and that’s fucking eating me up.
“Where you going with such a hurry?” Josh asks. Is he fucking kidding me? He practicality push me out the fucking door to go talk to her and now he is asking where I am going? “To get my girl” I run pass him. Fuck my bike is at the club house. “Here douchbag” he throws his keys at me “I got a ride back”. I nod my head “Thanks men I owe you one”. I need to talk to Angel before it’s too late.
I’ve been park outside Angel’s house for about 2 hours waiting for her to come home but she is still a no show. I’ve called her like a thousand times and the phone goes straight to voicemail. I know Hope will not tell me anything if I call her so I don’t even bother. I knocked on her door until the neighbors threaten to call the cops on me. I broke that fuckers nose for threaten me and then I came to the parking lot to wait for her. Where else can she be at this hour? Of course why didn’t I think about it before? I start my bike and drive.
I get to the club but the place is empty not even that Animal Thing is here. Even the parking lot is empty I don’t see her car anywhere. My phone rings and I quickly answer without looking. “Angel?” I ask. Josh laughs on the other side “Hi to you too pumpkin”.
“What the fuck do you want?” I ask pissed that’s it’s not Angel. “Just checking on my baby” he says. He is pushing my buttons right now and I don’t think it’s a good idea. “Back off dick” I growl. “Seriously how’s my baby? I want my bike back exactly how I gave her to you no scratches and no missing pieces” he says. I take in a deep breath “I can’t find her” I say.
“My baby?” Josh asks. I am not in the fucking mood to be joking with Josh. “Fuck you” I say ready to hang up. Can’t he see that I am fucking freaking out right now? I can’t find her. “Give her time she was upset last night, just come back to the club and wait on her to call you I am sure she will” he says. I shake my head if I know Angel I know she isn’t going to call me. “Just come to the club and if she doesn’t call we’ll go find her I promise” he says. I nod my head even though he can’t see me “Fine”. I hang the phone and get on the bike.
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“Relax bro it’s only been 3 hours give her one more and if there is still no sign we’ll go around asking for her” Josh says. I can’t give her another hour it’s driving me crazy not knowing where the hell she is. I left over 20 voicemails, the only reason I don’t leave more it’s because the voicemail is full. I didn’t even think that was fucking possible to be honest. Not knowing where she could be is driving me fucking insane. I don’t know what I’ll do if she fucking disappears on me again. I can’t go another 2 years not knowing from her just thinking about it makes me fucking insane. “If I don’t hear from her soon I am going to kill someone” I say as I reach for a shot.
“Hey baby” Tatina says from behind me. She is the last fucking person I want to see right now. I shrug her arm off me “Keep it moving” I growl. “Oh someone is angry I bet I can find a way to make that go away” she licks her red lips. I refill my shot glass and throw it back. I am so close to choking her. “Go suck someone else dick mines it’s not interested’ I say. She looks over to Josh “Nope” he simply states. “Fuck you punk bitch” she turns to walk away but I pull her back in “What did you just fucking say bitch?” I grow. She steps towards me “Fuck you punk bitch” she words it. She thinks I am playing games with her she has something else coming her way. I shake my head as I pull her in “Listen really close bitch because this is the first and last time I am going to say this. If you ever disrespect me again I’ll fucking ban you from stepping one fucking foot in this club and we both know you can’t fucking live without all the sperm you and your fucking pussy swallows on a daily basic. I am sure no one will miss you around here because if you don’t know there are plenty of cum eaters who are eagerly waiting for one of you to fuck up for them to step in” her eyes get bigger by the second “and don’t you ever in your fucking pathetic dick sucking life touch me or even address me do you understand?” I ask.
Her eyes are the size of a fucking pool ball by the time I am done with her. She nods her head as I let go off her “Now get lost sperm bucket”. I take my seat as I reach for the bottle. “Ouch” Sasha says from across the bar. I lift my head and glare at her. I have something for her to if she likes. “Sasha, don’t” Josh says from beside of me. She nods her head and walks over to the other side of the bar. “You alright man?” he ask. I nod my head one and take the shot “I am losing it” I admit. “I know,” he agrees “all this cum talk makes me want to get my dick suck how about I get it suck and then we go find your girl” he says. As if I am going to wait for him to get his dick suck to go get my girl. “Whatever” I say, as soon as he disappears I am fucking out of here. He hops over the bar and walks towards Sasha. He whispers in her ear and she just nods her head as she smirks. I’ve never seen some one that happy about sucking dick before.
They walk towards me and she suddenly drops to her knees behind the counter. What the fuck? Josh starts to unbutton his pants “You didn’t think I was going to leave you out here did you?” he ask. I shake my head and look the other way “You’re a fucking pig”. He chuckles “Bitch please as if you never done it before” he says. I reach for the bottle and pour us out a drink “That was before” I say as I throw my drink back. “Yeah what-oh-ever” he says. I shake my head as I laugh. If it wasn’t because I know what’s going on under this counter I would never guess he was getting his dick suck. Josh throws his head back as he growls.
There is hollering and whistling coming from outside. “What the fuck is going on?” I ask. “Oh baby you can check me any fucking time” I hear Rebel yell. “Do fries come with that shake?” Clutch jumps in. “You” I hear someone say. I turn around in my seat and see a furious Hope walking in with her nurse uniform. “Fuck” Josh growls. Oh this is going to be good. “This is all you’re fucking fault” she walks up to me fuming. What the hell is she talking about? “Hope what’s wrong?” I ask. Her eyes are full with tears and her face is red. “Don’t fucking Hope me,” she says furious. I never seen her like this before. “How fucking could you?” she ask “I was fucking routing for you, she gave me a million and one reason why she couldn’t give you a chance and still I fucking push her to give you a fucking chance, and you repay me like this?” she ask. What the fuck? Who the hell does she fucking think she is talking to me like that? She has no fucking right getting in-between this. “Calm the fuck down” I stand to confront her.
“Don’t fucking tell me to calm down” she shoves me. What the fuck is wrong with this girl. Doesn’t she know I can easily break her in half? “Brunette” Josh says. Hope looks over to him “Where the fuck you come from?” she ask. Josh shuts his mouth as his hands turns into fist. I have to fight the urge to fucking laugh at him. “I don’t care stay out of this” she says as she returns to me “This is all your fucking fault” she says. That’s it I had enough of her. “It’s my fucking fault that Angel got caught in her lie?” I yell. Instead of stepping back Hope gets in my face “You promise to protect her and you did the complete fucking opposite, you’re just like her fucking mom blaming shit on her” now she has tears rolling down her face. Why the fuck she crying? I am the one who was lied to what about what I fucking feel? No one fucking stops and thinks about me. “Stop making her the fucking victim she was the one that lied to me” I yell.
Before I can even re-act Hope hand comes flying down across my face “You piece of shit”. Without even thinking about it I reach for her arm and pull her in to me. “Tabios let go of her now” Josh growls. “Shut the fuck up and keep getting your dick suck” I growl back. Hope looks over the counter and sees Sasha. She looks up at Josh and fakes laugh “Un-fucking-believable”. She turns back to me “Let go of me Tabios or I am not responsible for what can happen next” she threatens. I let go of her not because she threaten me but because this is getting out of control. “Hope I like you and I know you’re mad with me right now and that’s why you’re blaming me for all of this” I say. She swipes her tears away “The fact that you’re blaming Angel for getting rape is beyond me”. As soon as those words leave her mouth I feel a cold shiver run through me. “What?” I ask her. “Never mind, coming here was a huge fucking mistake,” she looks over to Josh as she says that. Josh drops his head as he is buckling his pants. Sasha is already on the other side of the bar. “I just came to tell you that she is gone so you don’t have to worry about her” she turns back to me.
She is gone? She can’t be fucking one. That’s not possible. Hope turns around but I quickly step in her way. “What do you mean she is gone? Where is she? I have to talk to her” I say. I need to go find her she can’t fucking just leave like this. This isn’t over we aren’t over. She fakes laugh “Too late for that and even if I knew where she was I would never tell you” she walks around me. I reach for her hand “Hope,” I plead “Tell me the whole story please”. I need to know what happen. I am so fucking confuse. “Why should I?” she ask me “you promised to protect her and now she is gone all she left me was a letter. You took the only family I have away from me” she stars crying again. “Brunette” Josh walks behind me. She glares at him “You stay away from me” she warns him.
I don’t know what the hell is going on between them but I don’t give a fuck right now. “Hope I didn’t know about Angel getting, you know,” I can’t even say the word. Just thinking about her going through that makes me want to kill someone with my bare hands. “Rape?” she asks. I nod my head. “Fine I’ll tell you but not here,” she looks at Josh “this place is disgusting. I need to get out of here” she turns to walk away. Josh tries going after her but I stop him “Not right now”. He is going to have to wait his fucking turn. Josh nods his head and backs off.